I am so tired I just forgot my own phone number in the middle of leaving my therapist a voice mail.

posted 3 days ago with 2 notes
#loribabble

Evidently, it takes three weeks of stress, minimal sleep and living out of a suitcase at my mom’s before I’m within spitting distance of my breaking point. Not bad.

I’m going to a belly dance retreat this weekend. Let’s hope I don’t have a complete meltdown in front of everyone.

posted 1 week ago with 2 notes
#loribabble #depression cw

Quick and unpleasant life update:

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Time to post some inspirational quotes with zero context on how this is relevant to my life right now.

Time to post some inspirational quotes with zero context on how this is relevant to my life right now.

huh, that’s a distinction i hadn’t considered before. but hey, same thing stands—do enough calls and you get used to it. and hey, i bet the people you’re calling handle so many calls that they won’t even remember you, much less care about your goofs

This is also part of my pre-call pep talk. And I’m definitely making progress - ten years ago it took me a couple of days to amp myself up enough to finally call! (When I was in high school, if my dad asked if I wanted pizza or whatever for dinner and I said yes, he’d make me call. I have finally forgiven him for this.)

posted 1 month ago with 2 notes
#kayliemalinza #replies

my first job (and most following jobs, actually) involved answering phones a LOT. not quite the same as calling, but if you have 60 phone conversations a day you do get used to it. so, people like that can call without having to worry first. ^^
So the weird thing is that I have absolutely no problem answering phones. My brain has decided that whoever answers the phone automatically has control of the situation. When I call someplace new, though, I still go on this panic spiral where I’m all what if it’s the wrong number or I say something stupid or I mispronounce a name? Then this person I’ve never met will think I’m an IDIOT! 
I’ve gotten around this by coming up with a script for what I’m going to say beforehand and giving myself a pep talk wherein I remind myself that I am not going to spontaneously combust if I say something wrong. 
What I meant was “I am deeply jealous of people who don’t have to psych themselves up for an hour before calling a place they’ve never called before”.
posted 1 month ago with 2 notes
#kayliemalinza #replies

I don’t understand people who can call places they’ve never called before without having to psych themselves up for at least an hour first

posted 1 month ago with 6 notes
#loribabble

Guess who’s got Photoshop baaaaaaaaack

But it’s for the Mac which means I have to figure it out all over agaaaaaaaaaiiin

I also have to redownload my massive collection of PR caps and brushes from dropbooooooox

My son started middle school today. I do not feel old enough to have a kid in middle school. I especially do not feel old enough to have a kid who got up and ready on his own at 6:15 in the morning, said “Have a good day, mom!” and then walked himself a mile to the bus stop on his way to middle school. What the hell.

I totally bought these in black so I can look like I’m on my way to doing something active but really I’m just lounging around in my pajamas. They are SO COMFY.

I totally bought these in black so I can look like I’m on my way to doing something active but really I’m just lounging around in my pajamas. They are SO COMFY.

Finding out that the police are forcing out, harassing, and arresting the media that are trying to cover what is happening in Ferguson has me terrified on a whole new level.

posted 1 month ago with 1 note
#loribabble #holy hell

Last night I had a dream that there were tigers in my neighbor’s back yard that were stalking me every time I went outside, and I was really upset because my jacket was outside and I couldn’t get it because the tigers would get me, and this is completely relevant to my current state of mind.

posted 1 month ago with 1 note
#loribabble

invisiblelad:

micdotcom:

Days after Michael Brown’s death, Ferguson looks like a war zone

A vigil held for Michael Brown, an unarmed black teenager gunned down by Ferguson, Mo., police on Saturday in disputed circumstances, turned into what the media described as a riot on Monday evening.

But while national coverage has focused on the indisputably counterproductive violence and destruction committed by Ferguson residents during a moment of anguish, videos and photos taken from the scene show local police aggravating the situation as well.

Years of tension have reached a boiling point

Does this look like serving and or protecting to you? 

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#holy shit

“You’re only given one little spark of madness. You mustn’t lose it."  - Robin Williams [July 29th 1951 - August 11th 2014]

You’re only given one little spark of madness. You mustn’t lose it."
Robin Williams
[July 29th 1951 - August 11th 2014]

Pacific Rim owns my soul

☛ Working On ☚

Unnamed Mako fic, layered shimmies, getting off my lazy ass and getting back in shape

♪ Ear Candy ♪

Fight Song, Rachel Platten; Coming Your Way, Beach Avenue